I bore life into a world I believed would love
As hard as I was ready to
My womb swelled with anxious butterflies
I was unafraid for myself
For I had far more of that emotion to give away
Than to keep.
So selflessly, I poured into you
The birth of an atom of dream
My unique mixture of divine spices
A funny balance of sense and scents
That brought me to hallucination
I refilled with the hope that they’d work together in harmony
I read stories to increase my faith
I washed my hands of my needs to improve your stay
And each day I would do the same
Labor over things to turn out right
I love you more each day and night
And little by little I’m learning that love is
All of these petty forgettable things
Taking up a bigger space in your heart
It’s remembering you don’t eat rice when it’s too soft
And cover your ears when a fire truck passes
It’s forgiving myself when I can’t comfort you
It’s enough never being enough
It’s being thankful even when things are tough
It’s finding the energy when my tank is on E
It’s being worthy of you, God’s greatest blessing to me
Something tells me He chuckled at my plans
Unknowing that my schedules and routines
Were all imperfect for who you’d be
You see
I’m glad for a day like this, more than a birthday!
To manifest new beginnings
You celebrate not just life
But also a shift of minds
A meeting with one’s soul
Rather, prayers of thanks untold
For throughout the rest of the year
Hopes and wishes
Goals and dreams
Push us forward onto our toes
But today and only today
Standing still is the gift we hold
Thankfulness for exactly what we have
Wanting for nothing more
Than an opportunity to brag
About how good God has already been
For health, strength, happiness, and family
Will always be amongst the finer things.
Tattletales of a Speech-Language Pathologist 